It's Hard to Take But I Don't Have Any Better Choices

In last 2 weeks at my first time in Jogja, i felt so lonely in here. Without my best friends, my family, my Pasma-mates, Smansa's flagpole, and you, made me felt sad in every hour at my room. But, i was thinking, if i could make you to be my 'drug' in my study, i could be smart again. But, that was just an idea, you are really different know. Never be the same like when we first met. I know you are know fell in love with someone else. You made me feel sick, but also i felt happy too. Now, you can be happy again with your boy-mate, your best choice, that better than me. God answered my pray and i hope you could be a strong woman:)

Judge by Its Cover

Santaaai sob, skrg bukan cerita air mata lagi. Ini mungkin agak sadis ya, sebagai anak yang selalu berbakti kepada orang tua,
Sekitar beberapa hari yang lalu, saya bangun jam 3 pagi. Udah kayak ayam aja tuh bangun pagi siap-siap ngebangunin orang. Nah pas itu lagi sakit tenggorokan, kepikiran deh buat teh hangat biar sakit tenggorokannya sedikit mereda. Pas lg buat, tiba-tiba bapak bangun dengerin tu suara "kelenengan" gelas pas lg ngaduk teh. Di tanya deh "Km ngapain ?" trs saya jawab, "buat teh pak". Dengan nada curiga nanya lagi "ngapain km buat teh subuh-subuh  ?"  jawab lagi saya "kasi je, emang seneng teh je" Tidur lah bapak setelahnya.
 Maju ke beberapa hari berikutnya, di tanya lagi pas siang-siang duduk di luar sama bapak "kamu kok lemes gitu ?" Terus tak jawab "kan sering begadang, pulang pagi terus... (dengan nada sedikit agak takut kepaktukjeeenggg!!) Tiba-tiba satu kalimat utama tersurat "kamu enggak make(narkoba.red) kan ?" sontak kageet saya "Ahhh !? Make ?? Ya enggaklaaahhhh!!! enggak sampai enggak surya gitu!! ngapaian bapak bisa mikir sampe segitunyaa !!?" Terus bapak membela "kamu soalnya buat teh subuh-subuh" Terus saya "reply" "emgnya knp ?" Bapak memberi argumennya "Orang make seneng banget minum teh gitu, itu salah satu cirinya, bapak tau dari temen bapak" Saya pun menegaskan "Enggak pak, surya enggak berani gitu. sumpaahh!" Bapak pun kembali bersurat "Makanya, muka tu lo jangan sampe gitu, udah kayak "pecandu" mukamu. Jangan seringin begadang" Dan saya mengakhiri "Iyaaiyaa...(satu-satunya jawaban supaya pembicaraan selesai.)
Ternyata muka itu harus selalu ceria bro, itu bisa mendapat nilai plus dari orang-orang yang melihat kamu, harus selalu ceria walau banyak masalah. Karena dari senyuman lah, kita di dunia bisa hidup damai dsn tentram:)

Only Know You Love Her When You Let Her Go

"Let Her Go"

Well you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go

Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you’re missin' home
Only know you love her when you let her go
And you let her go

Staring at the bottom of your glass
Hoping one day you'll make a dream last
But dreams come slow and they go so fast

You see her when you close your eyes
Maybe one day you'll understand why
Everything you touch surely dies

But you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go

Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you're missin' home
Only know you love her when you let her go

Staring at the ceiling in the dark
Same old empty feeling in your heart
'Cause love comes slow and it goes so fast

Well you see her when you fall asleep
But never to touch and never to keep
'Cause you loved her too much
And you dived too deep

Well you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go

Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you're missin' home
Only know you love her when you let her go

And you let her go (oh, oh, ooh)
And you let her go (oh, oh, ooh)
Well you let her go

'Cause you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go

Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you're missin' home
Only know you love her when you let her go

'Cause you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go

Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you're missin' home
Only know you love her when you let her go

And you let her go

"This's what i feel right know, i hope you know it for sure:) "

Let Her Go~

Tengah malem di buat galau sama lagu.....
Pas bgt gilaaakkk! tiba2 tmn bbm jam 12 malem tepat setelah saya bwt status ucapan selamat ulang tahun buat tmn. Tiba-tiba dia nyuruh download lagu dari Passenger judulnya "Let Her Go". Bah ni kyknya lagu galau, karena dari judul udah air mata bangeettt-____-
tapi ya karena penasaran ya download ajaaahhhh~
Bidih bru denger lagunya langsung galau setengah mati sob:') galau yang ketahan lepas semua, gilaaak nendang bangeett!
Nih tak kasi deh official videonya, enjoy your tears now, feel it my friends:')

Perpisahan Ini

Sudah Agustus coy, it's time to pack what you need for collage!
Ngg kerasa lagi bbrp hari sudah bakal pisah sama teman-teman SMA, keluarga, dan orang-orang spesial.
Tapi ya namanya juga bwt hidup, kita harus rela pisah dengan orang-orang yang kita sayang. Tapi selalu masih ada penyesalan dalam diri, banyak juga kesalahan yang masih belum bisa saya perbaiki, dan saya sangat menyesal telah melakukan hal tersebut. Maaf ya saya sudah jahat sama kalian-kalian yang saya sakiti, bukan berarti saya jahat, saya cmn pgn yang terbaik bwt kalian walaupun kesannya jahat bgt, cmn memag itulah satu-satunya cara agar kalian bahagia dan saya di cap sebagai orang jahat. Emg sakit, tp itu namanya pengorbanan:)
Semoga karma ini jg bisa memperbaiki sikap saya untuk ke depannya, dan semoga kalian bisa berbahagia:)
Dan terima kasih juga ya sudah menemani untuk bbrp bulan ini, emg klo ketemu agak spechless, ngg tau mau ngomong apa, grogi jg, cmn saya pengen sekali duduk berdua dan berbagi cerita. Ngg tau deh yang bikin saya kyk gini karena apa, tp sampai post ini di buat, saya masih kebayang-bayang juga. Tapi ya karena emg ngg bisa ya sudahlah, ngg usah di paksain juga.
grazie per il tuo amore, sarai sempre nel mio cuore 21 e grazie per il tuo amore, mi dispiace ho fatto male 11. (maaf bahasa google translate, jadi bahasanya agak acak-acakan yaahhhh:$)